Feb 10, 2008

Time...


Do you ever feel like you run out of time to do what you want in a day? I feel like I work so much and have so little time to myself. I'm never satisfied with my time. Either I'm busy and I want to do nothing, or I am doing nothing and I want to be busy...if only I was satisfied with just doing what I am doing with the moment. I admit I seized the moment this past weekend and went to the beach for a few hours when it was sunny and beautiful, so I was happy about that. However, when will time be long or short enough? Is time ever completely enough? Will I ever leave myself enough time to be early to work, take time to scrapbook, journal, sing more often, play the guitar, and take more courses? I'm motivated, but sometimes I feel like I use my time to be on myspace when I should be using the gifts God has given me. Time is valid, useful, and valuable, but am I using it as such? Time is a gift because our life is short. I spend so many moments of my day worrying about what I can do next except for cherishing the moment. Instead of letting my creative side soar, I waste precious time that God has given me...I should use the time I have to enhance my creative side and become a better me! Sometimes I don't feel like I am not good enough because I am not motivated. How must one become motivated? Stop staring at the computer screen and put my interests into action...but which activities must I pursue first? Guitar, collaging, photography, photoshop, kickboxing? What's a girl to do with too much time or too little time or no time at all? Am I making any sense? Aww, the meaning of time. Will I ever quite figure it out?!