Jun 30, 2009

That Was AwKwArD


Last night I watched Lars and the Real Girl with some of my friends and it really made me think about the awkward moments in life. Let's face it, sometimes life is just very awkward. Or sometimes one can be an awkward person. I think we all can have awkward moments in our life, but it how we handle these moments is what truly makes them weird and downright awful moments. But...these moments also make us uniquely us, awkward and all.

What are some of your most awkward moments? Here some of my 10 weirdest moments and quirks - what I would consider AWKWARD.

1. Sometimes when someone is talking during a conversation about something positive or something they would like to accomplish in the near future, I put my thumbs up. I do this either when the person who I am talking to is ending the convo or heading out the door. I always feel so silly as my thumbs come up as to say "Cool dude!"

2. Whenever I blow my nose it is super loud and I mean SUPER loud. It makes people look at me weird and sometimes I just need to blow my nose, okay? Whatever!?

3. I try to confront issues head on and that's why I talk to a friend if something is bothering me. But, do you ever have have those moments where you say honest thoughts and there is just dead silence? No reply? I just wish sometimes that the person would be honest back and actually respond! Sometimes there are no words to describe the moment though, or the person does not know how to respond, so it creates awkward silence. So frustrating!

4. When I am nervous sometimes I hiccup and lose my breath, resulting in the word I was saying to be split up. I know, pretty funny huh?

5. This is awkward: someone in the room says something that makes no sense what so ever. The topic is changed all the while wondering what the heck that person meant.

6. Having bad breath and trying to stay away from the person you are talking to. That is just gross and plain awkward.

7. I have always been afraid to go to a 24 Hour Fitness gym class because I know I won't be in sync. I just know, ok? I still would like to go and make a complete a** out of my self at some point. Ha ha.

8. Someone or the people around you don't think something is funny and you can't stop laughing...

8. Running into an old friend or boyfriend that didn't end so well. Do I shake this person's hand? Do I give them a very awkward hug? Why am I in this situation to begin with? Awkward...

9. My head goes up and down when I sing. I have NO idea where I got this from. I look like a singing turkey and I try so hard to get rid of this! Awkward...

10. I keep walking faster than the person I am with and every minute I have to back track. Sorry to leave you behind!

Behind awkwardness lies a deeper issue, I think. Sometimes our awkward moments prove that we are only human. Other times it shows that we are trying to fit in. Other times, a person is really seeking to be loved. That was the case for Lars in Lars and the Real Girl...he just wanted to feel wanted and loved. He didn't know how to act around people. He was just a good loving and clumsy guy. So, whenever in doubt, I try not to laugh at awkward people or at least laugh with them. I know that I am awkward too. I know that without a doubt I can be blonde, clumsy, out of place, say the wrong thing at the wrong time, and feel completely unloved in situations. To those people, the people who feel truly awkward, I would say try to reach out to them. Tell them that you have done something silly lately too. Try to ease their awkwardness or make them feel loved.

Last Friday I was buying a movie ticket at the ticket window to see The Proposal. The girl who was helping me reached for my credit card, and without thinking put my credit card in the slot where you grab the tickets! Oops! Now, I could have totally laughed at her and made her feel awkward. But she wasn't smiling, she was about to cry! Instead, I simply smiled and said: "It's okay, I've done something like that too." I know it didn't take away her awkwardness at the moment, but I hope it eased her awkward moment a little bit. Poor thing. Lesson learned, everyone goes through the awkwardness. Everyone.

And so my ocean dreamers, what are some of your awkward moments? Spill the beans, oops, well, that might be awkward too. ;) Have a fabulous day!

Oh, and thanks so much for your thoughtful comments on my crying post. I am feeling better and back to being happy me!! I hope you are happy too, even if you need to get a good cry in now and again.

Flickr Photo

Jun 27, 2009

Big Girls DO Cry

Picture from DeviantArt, by zero rider

Tears...what effects a soul so much that it causes one to cry? Crying is a basic human emotion and without it we are often accused of being heartless, cruel, and insensitive. But, if we cry too much, then we are babies, selfish, depressed, or sad.

I for one believe that not only is crying healthy, it is important for a person to get all of their pent up emotions out. Remember Amanda Woods in The Holiday? How she couldn't cry for the entire film until she truly felt love again? I remember, and it reminded me that crying and feeling emotions is essential to understanding human pain. If whatever we are feeling gets held in too tightly, one can become void of emotion. I've caught myself become void of emotion at times in my life, and when I get like that, I don't want to be. I want to be free to understand my heart and open to feeling joy, pain, and hurt.

I took this picture a few years ago when I was going through a lot of pain with my ex. It helped me journal in a way what I was going through. Now I look back and think, wow, what I went through was worth it. It helped me become who I am today. It helped me realize that emotions are okay and they are healthy.

Lately I have been crying more often than normal. I'm not quite certain why...all I know is, I'm okay with it. No, I'm not depressed. Yes, I might be a bit blue. I've always considered myself an emotional person and I actually used to cry more often than I do now. The last couple of days though, I've been so sensitive! I'm not sure if it is because money gets tight, or that my dad has been having back problems, or because work gets stressful, all I know is, I've been realizing that crying is okay. Crying helps me vent. Crying helps me unwind. Crying helps me unleash my pain and frustration. And crying helps me understand my basic human emotions and helps me deal with whatever is bothering me. Crying is, uh, well, part of me.

How often do you cry? Do you consider crying a form of weakness? Because I don't. I think crying is a form of beauty. It also can be gut wrenching at the same time. When someone cries out in pain, I want to help, react, and solve their hurting heart. But sometimes, there is nothing I can do. I can just sit there and hold a person while they cry. Or I can laugh so hard that I cry. After all, it's okay to cry and realize that even though people may say "Big Girls Don't Cry," this big girl does cry. She cries and becomes a stronger person because of it. She cries beyond the pain to a beautiful and bright future, with hope.

Picture from Flickr

Jun 25, 2009


First and foremost, I am sad that the king of pop died today. I know every blogger in the universe is blogging about this, but I also had to pay tribute to his name. I remember when I was ten years old all I wanted was my dad to take me to the store so I could buy my first Michael Jackson CD! I couldn't get his songs out of my head. Remember, Heal the World? That was my fave!! Rest in peace king of pop.

That being said, um, I want to introduce you to my new friends. Drum roll please!! Introducing my new pink friends, by ASICS.

I finally splurged and got a second pair of these grand shoes. I really wanted a pink pair, in particular to encourage me to run more! These shoes are great. They are uber comfortable and fashionable at the same time. Yay!

I went to my apartment gym and surrounding areas this morning and had to snap a few photos on my camera phone to give you an idea. ASICS are wonderful for many reasons, beginning with...

They look amazing near flowers, which means you might be able to wear them with a cute pair of jeans and cute shirt, right?

ASICS also can be used to go jogging by the beach. Be careful that you don't get sand all over them though! They need to stay pretty. Or at least I would be concerned and would try to keep them pretty. He he.

ASICS are great on treadmills. You never run out of energy! One should hope not anyway.

You can use ASICS to go hiking and you can be in style at the same time! How exciting!!

Wait...these ASICS still haven't run out of steam. They work great for running up and down stairs. Yes, I do this for exercise. Have you tried the Santa Monica steps? 70 or more steps up and down, up and down. Nope, not joking, but great exercise! I used to do this when I had a class near by in Santa Monica, but I miss them! Oh how my new shoes would do so great with endurance on them!

ASICS also work perfectly on the elliptical. I have to be careful with this machine because it is so comfortable that I forget to run some days because the elliptical can be my easy workout escape route!

Not done yet...ASICS are perfect when lifting weights. Seriously.

When doing squats...Okay, that is when my leg is coming up while doing sqauts. Oh, and yes, that is my tattoo too. It matches! :) I know, I am a dork, ok?

I think my ASICS are done for the day. They found a comfortable spot near my Women's Fitness magazine.

I feel a tad guilty for spending over $100 on these shoes, but it was so worth it! Now I feel more motivated to work out. After all, these beauties allow girls like us to be in style, all the while trying to attain a nice beach bod.

Jun 23, 2009

Be a Beach Babe with Billabong

So last night I went to Balboa Beach for my first bonfire of the summer. It was quite the success and I had such a good time! I definitely am full of smores, but they were sooo good! I also got into a marshmallow fight with my guy friends. Yes, I admit, I was the one to start it. I had so much energy after all of that sugar! Here a couple of pics from last night. Singing and sitting around the fire and watching High School students climb up a pole near by were also highlights of the evening. Ha ha.

With all of my recent travels to the beach, I've really been in the mood to search for bright, fun, and comfortable beach clothing. When I moved to California 6 years ago I immediately began spotting, recognizing, and in return loving all of the beach brand names. One brand name in particular, Billabong, is a brand name I quickly fell in love with. I am one to wear bright and vibrant colors because it makes me feel happy, confident, and ready to hit the beach at any time. So last night when I got back from my bonfire, I opened a fun gift from my mom that I had received. She sent me a bunch of clothing and accessories from Maui! Yay! In the gifts included a lovely tie dye dress, made by Billabong. I'll wear it soon and put a picture on here soon for you all can see.

Anyway, so tonight I have been exploring on the web on the Billabong site because I wanted to see more of this beach wear. I love it!! It's so bright and colorful. So fun.

But....not only did I come across some lovely outfits, I found out that Billabong has a nonprofit organization event that they do once a year in Hollywood. The proceeds for the concert and fashion show goes to help create new and improved water for people in third world countries, which I found to be very rad. Here's the site for you to check it out, which is called Design For Humanity. I was super bummed that I missed it by a short week! I'll have to try and go next year. What a great way to raise money, and to see all of the new styles that are coming out as well!

I am by no means a surfer. I want to learn, but I think I would suck. I can see myself stumbling and hitting my head on coral. Ha ha, I went with Big Kiddo once in the ocean and got sucked down by a huge wave! Awww, but that is a story for another day. Anyway, I find these pictures to be eye candy and fun to wear at the beach, all from Billabong. Also check out Pac Sun for some of the other styles below, including the black and white dress. Enjoy ocean darlings...

Oh, and since I am an advertising sales representative in my day time job, I found Billabong's ads to be not only artistic, but eye catching and so bright and colorful! It makes me want to go the beach right now.

Oh, and even if some of your ladies don't live by the beach, which I know some of you don't, you can still rock Billabong! You can be a beautiful lady on a hott summer day in your yard, at a concert, or wherever these fierce and artistic colors of delight take you!

Jun 21, 2009

Redwood Room & Sailing

Happy Sunday! I am so super tired right now, but I wanted to show you some pics of all our adventures this past weekend. Thanks for sweet wishes on my last post and I can officially say I did not get lost - lucky me! It was a bit tricky finding the BART, but once I was on it, it was easy to find the street that I was going to since I got on the only BART leading to that destination. The only problem was I went up to the wrong street when I got off so Big Kiddo had to come find me. Then there were some random guys asking me if I needed help. I politely said "NO thank you," and tried to not look like a tourist from Utah. Ha ha, had to throw that in since I am originally from Utah....

Sailing in San Francisco was beautiful. It was everything I expected and more. It was so relaxing and mesmerizing to be out on the water for so long. We were out on the water for about 6 hours and it seemed to go by so quickly! We did pull in for one pit stop to get out and stretch at Angel Island, but besides that we were sailing away!

At first there were no winds, so we weren't really sailing. We were just "puttering around," as my Big Kiddo explained it. Ha ha. But then all of a sudden, we hit this huge pocket of wind by the Golden Gate Bridge, and we took off. I had no idea that the boat goes to the side when you are sailing, so at first it scared me. When I was explained that it was perfectly normal, I relaxed and enjoyed the experience of sailing.
The sites were gorgeous - we were by Angel Island, the Golden Gate Bridge, and the infamous Alcatraz Island, where there was a federal penitentiary, which used to be off-limits to the public. It reminded me of the Count of Monte Cristo.

Later in the afternoon it was very coooold. You can probably tell from the look on Big Kiddo's face. Or the lack of expression a couple of photos below. He he. I think it took me a couple of hours afterward to warm up in the car! Brr! It was totally worth it though!

Despite relaxing and having fun on the water, I found out that sailing is not all fun and games. You really have to listen to directions and know how to steer. I have a lot to learn but at least my Big Kiddo was very patient with me. Since I am not that great with directions to begin with, I really had to try hard to listen and then apply and remember what he said. At one point I almost crashed our boat when we were pulling in the dock because I got so scattered. Yikes! Glad we weren't going that fast and I dashed to the side to push our boat away from another boat to prevent any dents. That would not have been good, so I'm glad we made it back alright. I think I could seriously get into sailing and am thinking about taking some lessons so I can get up to speed. Literally. Ha ha.

On Friday night we went to a bar called Redwood Room in San Francisco. I was in awe of how classy the ambiance was. I also loved the interior of it. I wasn't able to snap any pictures, but I dug these off of the internet to show you.

I loved the lighting that they used for the Redwood Room.

Philippe Starck revamped this bar at the Clift Hotel, a historic space featuring the original redwood paneling and a large bar supposedly carved from a single redwood tree. It definitely was an elegant place with a sophisticated clientele that usually spends evenings here for drinks and conversation. On this particular night however, my Big Kiddo and I listened to the music, enjoyed eachother's company, and people watched. Its always fun to me to observe what is going on and this was certainly entertaining.

The only thing was I wasn't very prepared in the fashion department because someone didn't tell me that it was dressy and that I should bring a pretty outfit! Shame on Big Kiddo. I was the only girl in the room with tennis shoes, but oh well, I still had fun and I didn't have to worry about blisters in heels from walking the streets in SF. Plus I could eat fries late since I didn't have a tight dress on. Lol.

Here's a picture of what the Redwood Room looked like in 1905. Big difference, huh? I love the history behind this room and even in 1905 it was gorgeous.

Okay, I am super tired. I feel like I was gone for a week instead of only two days! It was well needed though and I love seeing new sites and creating new memories with my Big Kiddo. Excuse my sappiness, he he. I hope you darlings had a wonderful weekend. What was the most exciting part of your weekend? Maybe relaxation was what was ordered. I know I will need that soon. ;) I'll be around on your blogs to see for myself what everyone is up to soon!

Jun 18, 2009

Take Me to the Sea

Hi ocean darlings, tomorrow I am flying to San Fran! From there I will get on the BART to meet Big Kiddo...please wish me luck with directions! After that he is going to show me around San Fran. I'm so excited! Saturday we will be sailing, hence the poem. It is my first time and I'll try to take some pics to post later! So, if I don't get to visit your bloggy lands until Monday, I hope you have a lovely weekend!

My love, take me to the sea
Only there will you see the deepest part of me
The one who laughs
The one who loves
The joyful giver
Who becomes childlike again
The worries melt away
This mermaid swims away
Into her fantasies
Of just you and me...
The waves bring music to my soul
The movement ushers in control
The wind moving through my hair
Your laughter heard everywhere
I can imagine it now, my love
My dreams are coming true
My love affair began with the sea
For you see, this love brought me to you
You named me your ocean dreamer
You taught me to believe
In anything and all that life will bring
Now I will hold my breath
Sing Ariel's song by the water
Wishing that this day will never end
Forever I will make believe
That you and I can live on this boat
In the sea...
Because the sea brought you to me

Jun 17, 2009

Deep Blue Ocean

Flickr Ocean Picture

I pray to be like the ocean, with soft currents, maybe waves at times. More and more, I want the consistency rather than the highs and the lows.
Drew Barrymore

I'm an ocean, because I'm really deep. If you search deep enough you can find rare exotic treasures.
Christina Aguilera

I'm horrified of lobsters. And shrimp and lobsters are the cockroaches of the ocean.
Brooke Burke

The ocean is a central image. It is the symbolism of a great journey.

We ourselves feel that what we are doing is just a drop in the ocean. But the ocean would be less because of that missing drop.
Mother Teresa

I shall go the way of the open sea, to the lands I knew before you came, and the cool ocean breezes shall blow from me the memory of your name.
Adela Florence Nicolson
Flickr Ocean Picture

I have to say that I like Christina Aguilera's quote the best right now. ;) Oh, and Mother Teresa's quote is wonderful too in regards to giving and making a difference in the world.

Which quote best describes YOUR view on the deep blue sea, ocean darlings?

Jun 16, 2009

Showing My Heart

I'm a little behind on my awards, so it is official catch up time. Thank you to the Unbeweavable darling, aka Liz for this tag of showing "my heart."

Oh, little side note before I dive in, I just have to share the happy news that my Big Kiddo invited me to fly down to San Fran this weekend to go sailing on Saturday! YIPEE! This is the first time I am going sailing with him. Since our first date he has wanted to take me, but since he likes to sail in Nothern CA and he doesn't go there that often, this will be our first opportunity. I am so ecstatic right now. I just purchased my one way ticket. That being said, here is part of my heart on this little blogging land for you all.

I'm Showing You My Heart:
Instructions: "with as much creativity as you can muster, show your heart in: a picture, a poem, a song (or piece of music), a phrase (or quote), an item of clothing, a place, and (just for fun) a Disney princess. If you want to join in, tag 6 more blogs." (I tagged 8 - he he.)

Picture ~
Here is my heart, I am opening my arms towards the sky. I am wishing for heaven where my heavenly Father reigns, and where there is a love, peace, and a joy that lasts forever...
Click for Flickr Open Arms Photo

Poem ~
How Do I Love Thee?
Elizabeth Barrett Browning

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.
I love thee to the level of every day's
Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.
I love with a passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

Song ~
By Idina Menzel
Here's the chorus of the song and it is such a good music video! You should check it out. ;)

If this is the moment I stand here on my own
If this is my rite of passage that somehow leads me home
I might be afraid
But it's my turn to be brave

A Quote ~
“Maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed. Maybe they just need to run free til they find someone just as wild to run with them.” Carrie Bradshaw, Sex in the City

Clothing ~

Place ~

Chambord Castle, Loire River Valley, in Paris, France
Yes, I have been here when I was 16. It was enchanting and I adored every moment.

Disney Princess ~
Here's a picture of my favorite princess, Belle, from Sanders Art Studio. I love how the artist depicts her. Belle is my favorite for her love of literature, her independent nature, and her ability to love even the Beast.

I also received an award from The Novelista Barista, the honest scrap award. Thanks darling! I also received the Charming and Honest Award from Iva Messy, thanks love!

I want to do a double tag (I know it might be a lot to ask,) but if you are tagged you can tell me about your heart and receive the Charming and Honest Award both! Whew, okay, so now I am tagging these lovely ladies for the Charming and Honest Award as well as showing me "your heart." Yay! Congrats darlings and only pass the award and tag on if you so desire and have the time. I know awards are nice, but take time to distribute. :)

"This award is bestowed on to blogs that are exceedingly charming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when the ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated. Please give more attention to these writers. Deliver this award to eight bloggers who must choose eight more and include this cleverly-written text into the body of their award."

A "cheery" disposition

Anywhere but here

Brunch at Saks

Faith Imagined

Captivate Me

A Graduate's Transition to the Real World

domestic urbanite.

Fashion Pulse.

Congratulations on the awards and I can't wait to learn more about you ladies! Have a fabulous evening. Guess what? Tomorrow is Wednesday, and that means we are half way through the week. That is good news for me - sailing is only a few days away! YAY!

Jun 15, 2009


So yesterday I decided to get up early before church and head to this fun place to jog, called Back Bay Loop. The idea was only to jog for 30-45 minutes, long enough to enjoy the sites and get my heart rate up. Well, let's just say I got a little lost. Well, lost is an understatement. I knew I was on the trail and I knew that I had jogged a long way, this much was certain. The problem was I estimated this loop was only 6 miles or so. Gosh was I dead wrong. This loop was at least 13 miles long. It was really deceiving because as you go around the corner, you can only see a part of the bay. I had no idea that the loop went all the way to Newport Beach and beyond. Part of the trail goes into residential roads, so it is really easy to get off of the trail. This is exactly what happened to me. I went off of the trail and got lost and ended up going on a longer route, away from the bay, than I expected. At the end I was rescued and found the trail, but I was so thirsty! This whole jogging journey was a valuable lesson.

So here are the following mistakes I made, resulting in myself being lost for exactly 3 and 1/2 hours with no cell phone or water. Nope, I'm not joking about my stupidity, but I am laughing about it now. You can laugh with me.

First mistake: I didn't bring my cell or water with me. I thought I would be gone only for a half an hour! Promise!

Second mistake: I jogged for 45 minutes and thought I could just finish up the loop...it couldn't be much longer, right?!

Third mistake: I kept jogging, for 3 hours because I didn't think the loop was THIS LONG! I was so tired, thirsty, and dehydrated!

Fourth mistake: Are you starting to see a pattern here?!

Fifth mistake: I couldn't find my car because I came back around the loop in the opposite direction and I went past my car. Yes, I went past my car!! I am also horrible with directions. Not good.

Sixth mistake: I didn't wear sun screen. My back is now fried!!

Only good mistake: I got lots of exercise and I knew to walk and not jog at the end because I wasn't exactly trained for this accidental half marathon. I have done a half marathon before and my legs killed after wards.

So are you laughing at my stupidity? Because you should! Lol. Luckily this really sweet lady helped me out. At the end, when I couldn't find my car, I asked her if she knew where the street was where I parked my car. She noticed that I looked quite tired (oh, really?) and offered to drive me to my car. Bless her heart! By this time I was starting to see spots in my eyes I was so tired. I was so thankful when I found Ariel that I drank my VitaminWater10 in 10 seconds flat!

Valuable lesson learned: always bring your cell phone (ALWAYS!), carry water, wear sunscreen, don't think that you can run a loop when you can't see how far it is, and ask for help. Yes, it is humbling to ask for help. Ha ha.

So the entire time I was trying to reach my car all I could think about was how THIRSTY I was. I was dreaming about water and even considered drinking this random water bottle that was tossed to the side of the street. But the idea of getting something nasty quickly changed my mind. Ha ha. Anyway, this prompted me to do this post on my favorite drinks as well as this entertaining story. I will NEVER take water for granted! Last night I had a dream that I got lost and couldn't find my way home, to boot. Lol.

I love these drinks...

Of course, good old water always does the trick

But, if water does not suffice, this is my favorite drink of all time = BOBA!

I adore Diet Lipton Green Tea...

I heart Vitamin Water. Vitamin10 is even better.

Diet Coke.

What are your favorite drinks and have any crazy jogging stories for me? Oh, and I am getting to the awards, I promise. I have lots of catching up to do! Happy almost Tuesday ladies!