Feb 14, 2011

what love means to me on Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day!
Yesterday, before my girlfriend and I headed 
out for a girl's night out, aka dinner and a movie,
we stopped by her grandparent's house to give 
them their meds and to say hi. I hadn't seen
them in a while but I realized that a lot had 
changed. Her grandpa is currently suffering
from dementia and some other health problems.
Her grandma has lost a lot of weight due to the
stress of taking care of her husband and growing older.
Her grandparents are both in their 80's.
My grandparents are also in their 80's but
are doing better health wise; time
will only tell and show more challenges as
they continue to age as well. It saddens me
to think about losing my grandparents but know
it is inevitable someday.
My heart went out to the elderly couple because
it was apparent that they were both holding on,
and trying their best to deal with their health issues
and to also live out the rest of their lives the only way
they know how: by loving one another.
They are currently both anxious to meet
their Lord and Savior in heaven. 
It really put things into perspective for me
watching them interact with one another and realizing
how much their life style has changed since
I had last seen them. How quickly things can change!
They have grown old together, and it made me 
contemplate how it would be as an
older couple towards the end of my life - 
after my children have had their children and 
life has changed so much.
Imagine being married to someone 
for several years {try 30, 40, 0r 50}
and then all of a sudden you age,
you start getting gray, and you start catching
illnesses more often, you break bones more easily,
and perhaps your spouse suddenly gets dementia
or heaven forbid Alzheimer's. To be quite honest,
this is what scares me the most
{aka losing my memories}
even though I know my life is in God's hands 
and I don't have to worry. It's still scary to
think about though - I try not to go there in my mind.
This whole scenario that unfolded in front of me
yesterday really made me realize what love is all
about even more. Love is not always fireworks,
flowers, candies, or materialism in general.
I think Valentine's Day allows people to get
too caught up in materialism when in fact
they should be worrying about what really matters.
Being there for someone when 
your loved one is sick,  might be dying, 
is going through cancer,
or some sort of illness, etc., 
is what truly is at the heart of love.  
My friend's grandma is sticking by
her husband even though he 
rarely even says her name anymore. 
Imagine being married to someone
for several years and all of a 
sudden they forget your name?!
Love is loving that person, 
despite the fact that they
may not even remember you 
when they are gray and old.
Scary, but it could be true some day.
This entire scene before me reminded me of an 
actual scene out of The Notebook.
You know how I truly realized that BK is the
guy for me? His actions of love. He stuck by
me when I went through my health scare. 
He was there every step of the way. He was there
when I cried, was scared, and he comforted me.
He honestly taught me what love is all about.
For that I am truly grateful. I strive to show people
the kind of love that he continues to show me
in my own life. I only pray that when someone
is hurting and going through a hard time that 
I can be there for them, because we all go through
struggles and we all need someone who loves us
just the way we are! 
So what is true love to me? It is...
Loving someone for who they are.
Developing a kind of trust that no one can break.
You may hurt one another but you know
how to forgive and not let wounds fester.
You are there for someone when they
are hurting, aching, and breaking.
You smile, laugh, and cry with them.
You tell them you love them and mean it,
not to get something or manipulate them.
You are selfless - you put their needs before yours.
You don't divorce them when times get tough.
You take care of them when they are gray and old.
You help them remember you even if they forget
who you are - that is a true test of love.
I hope this, Ocean Dreamers, helps remind you
what Valentine's Day 
{and every day for that matter}
is all about.

Sending my love to you all my lovely bloggers.


Feb 10, 2011

all I really want is a doxie

Today hasn't been the best of days.
Computer problems.
{I'm staying up late right now trying
to get the right downloads so my computer
doesn't freak out again. Bleh.}
Tiff with the boyfriend.
And some other things
not turning out the way I had hoped for,
but I know there will be other opportunities
along the way. Sorry for the vagueness,
but that's all I want to say right now. :)

Most of my long time readers know how much
I've wanted a doxie, aka dachshund for a few
years now. My love affair for doxies all began
when I met this lady when I started seeing
her cute photos of her precious pups on her
blog and on twitter land!
Tillie and Jessica also have doxies and if
any of you own this adorable pup I would
love to see some pictures of your dogs too!
Here's a darling picture of Jessica's pup, Chloe 
when she was a baby. I see her big puppy
dog eyes and just want to take her home!
You might also remember how in July of 2009
I desperately wanted to rescue a doxin 
puppy named Sammy from a pet shelter after one day
 BK and I went on a hike and then found
ourselves walking into the shelter where I came
across the most adorable puppy. Unfortunately
I couldn't adopt this sweet dog because
I lived in an apartment that didn't allow pets.
Thankfully someone else adopted this sweet little
guy because he was at a kill shelter. I would have
done anything in my power to rescue him if
it would have come to the point where there was
no hope for him! There was an instant love connection
and that day I vowed to myself that when I have
the time, home, and resources, I would bring
a doxie puppy into my house filled with love.
If you want to read the rest of my Sammy story
you can visit here and here...
Over the last few years I've simply had to be
satisfied by looking at pictures of these darling
creatures to slightly, and I mean slightly,
help my desire to run out to the nearest shelter
and rescue a doxie to take home this instant!
So since I'm in the need of instant doxie happiness,
I thought I would share some pictures with you
if you love these pups just as much as I do. ;)
All images can be found on my tumblr.
Don't you dare touch the doxie Mr. alligator!
oh, and you have to watch the YouTube
Iso doxie Channel, I'm hooked.
Iso is sooo cute and the songs that go
with Iso's adventures are just perfect.
Check them out right here.
Here's my favorite video, Iso In Slow Motion
Taking a Bath. Awww so cute!

So my plan is hopefully get a doxie in the
next year or two, after I've gotten a stable
job again and hopefully settled down with BK. :)
I can't wait to snuggle up with my pup,
go on long walks, laugh, talk to my puppy,
and be best friends forever.
It sounds cheesy but it's oh so true.

Until then I'll settle for doxie dreaming...
Do you have a dog?
What is your favorite kind of pup?