Do you ever feel like life is a roller coaster? You have your high peaks and your low peaks. Just when you are settled, something else rattles you. Then just when you think you are at your wits end something always seems to work out.
I've felt this way lately. I'm at a place in my life where I can say that I'm happy, and yet, I feel like things have been so up and down. So many changes have taken place and I just don't know where to turn! I would have to say making a career change 6 months ago was one of the best decisions I have ever made. I went with my gut and I'm following my heart and I love being a freelancer.
The challenges I have faced always seem to work out, but I have to say the most challenging thing for me right now is that I feel like I'm never in one place for very long. I've been traveling back and forth between Utah and California, hoping to quite honestly get an engagement ring from my love and make some plans so I can be back into CA for good. I know these things will happen in all good time. I have to admit it's not the best image to be living with your parents at the age of 26, but I am considering it a gift to be with my family again temporarily because I know it won't last very much longer. I can honestly say they are my best friends and I wouldn't have it any other way. I find comfort spending time with them in the evenings and catching up on our favorite TV shows and even though I'm not as social I used to be I find that I am content. I also love the new friendships I have. I have learned that quantity does not equal quality. I am content being with my family and my close friends - the people who understand and love me the most and I find comfort in that.
Do you ever feel like that life just passes you by sometimes? When hard times come up it seems like life is going by so slowly and then when the good times arise life goes by so fast! If only we could come up with a happy medium - a way to carefully store the good moments and the weed out the bad, and admittedly I would love owning a fast forward button for those bad moments. Owning a pause button for those super great moments would be like magic - if only that could take place. I suppose, however, that I wouldn't ever learn from the hard times if I didn't have them and that is what makes me who I am. I wouldn't take back the hard times because it opens new avenues to help those in need, learn more about myself, and how to change for the better.
But life as it is seems to be a never ending roller coaster. I think I am okay with this. I have to okay with this. You see - because you have to keep up with life or get left behind. You have to seize the moments of happiness and truly thank God for letting His face shine on yours. You even have to embrace the suffering and realize that it will all be worth it in the end. You have to choose to be happy, even when you don't feel it. You have to reach out to others before it's too late. You have to realize that your loved ones will pass on, like my grandpa, so you should take the opportunity and spend every moment that's available to you to be with them.
Life goes up and down, just like a roller coaster. When it all comes down to it in the end - I bet you will say it was worth it.
P.S. I find it comical that I actually don't like roller coasters that much - I only ride Space Mountain and Matterhorn at Disneyland! :P